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« Reply #45 on: August 01, 2006, 10:17:23 PM »
Day:  17
Sets:  12
Total Sets:  210

78 Sets to go in my Newbie Mission.

SkyNet, thanks for the advise.  That was a total AFC way to try and move them.  I keep doing that shit.

Tonigt I went down to Mill and went sarging with my brother.  He opened 5 sets and did great.  He is having a lot more fun now that he is opening sets.

I opened 12 and most were practice sets (ugly chicks, mixed sets).  I started practicing a new opener.  The two puppy opener by style.  The great thing about his opener is that it is a whole conversation in itself and can easily get you past the social hook point if they bite.  I used it probably 6 times and it got a little easier every time.  I have been using the 2 part kiss opener and I am getting a little concerned that I am going to double open a set on a different night with the same opener.

It occured to me that I really need to game the mixed sets untill I find out if they are a committed couple or just friends or siblings.  I have found that  lot of them are friends, sisters or cousins.

It also occured to me that the negs that I am trying to pull off from the start require a bit more calibration (Hello, I'm talking here).  I figured if I start smaller on a consistant basis it will grow into my personality.

It is funny after 200 sets I still get AA on the first 2-4 sets and on any set with 2 or more hot chicks and no guys.  I end up going beta after my opener and tend to stack opener after opener and never transition into solid A2 material.  After a while they kinda look at me funny as I ask for opinion after opinion.  I don't do this with HB7 and lower just hotties.

Later

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« Reply #46 on: August 02, 2006, 01:45:23 PM »
Quote from: "asmokindeal"

PS. This was only the second night working a bar also I opended 3 sets lone wolf before the guys got there (street sarging).  Never opened up sets lone wolf before.


Congrats on that. It is hard work going lone wolf. I'm glad you're getting into the bars, too - very target rich areas.

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« Reply #47 on: August 02, 2006, 08:01:06 PM »
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It also occured to me that the negs that I am trying to pull off from the start require a bit more calibration (Hello, I'm talking here). I figured if I start smaller on a consistant basis it will grow into my personality.


forget negs, i try to never use them. I only bust them out when i can sense that a girl is going to be a bitch or she thinks really highly of herself (you can ussualy tell by their style of clothing). Since you are doing street aproaches most people will be open to talk to you anways since no one ever does that to them (and you hit them with negs ?). Remember at first they must persieve you as a fun social guy who talks to everyone, since thats what your openers convey.
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« Reply #48 on: August 02, 2006, 08:24:03 PM »
SmokinDeal,
From my observations of you, your lowest hanging fruit to pick is leaning out when you get into A2 and beyond.  Remember how that waitress, at our favorite restaurant, just opened up and told her life's story for 10 minutes the second you began exageratedly leaning out (I kept enbedding "leanout out" in as many random statements as I could and the chicks never caught on).  As an outside observer, it was amazing to watch the results.  

Its very similar in sales.  As a salesman, you know you've got the sale when the other party leans in over the table...it means he's really listening and committed in the conversation.  He's been sold.  As a salesman, that's when you know its time to shut the fuck up and close the sale.  When the other party is leaning back, you know you have more groundwork to do...you haven't pushed the right buttons.  Women also know this on an unconcious level.  When you lean in, they've got the sale...the 1000th sale for the day.  Leaning back tells them they've got more work to do.  The catch is that most people naturally lean towards someone to talk and listen.  Its an unwritten sign of respect.

Leaning out also gets a man's "I want to control and fuck you" energy out of her space.  It allows her to be her girly self.  It breaks rapport with her.

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« Reply #49 on: August 02, 2006, 08:32:44 PM »
Oh yeah, look at the picture at the top of this webpage.  No not Brad Pitt...(can someone tell him that you never marry the mistress...mistresses are for fucking.  When you marry the crazy mistress you end up doing shit like traveling to third world countries to adopt kids...WTF).

I've always liked the picture to the top right...guy is leaning out pulling the chick to him but his arms are at his side.

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« Reply #50 on: August 04, 2006, 01:20:54 AM »
Wednesday Night:

I pm skynet to set up a tucson sarge and at 7:30pm he pm'ed me back but I didn't get it untill about 10:15pm.  His pm said that if I wanted to I could come down that night and he would show me around.  I called him as soon as I got the pm and asked him how late he was going to be up and if it was too late to come down.  He said there were places open and that he would take me out if I came down but I should probably just come down on Monday.

I said "Ok, I'll come down on Monday"  I walked back to my table at the restaurant I was at and started thinking.  I was disapointed that I had gotten the pm so late and that I wasn't going to see skynet in action untill monday.  

I call skynet back and said "fuck it, i'm comeing down.  Are you game?"  He said yeah come down and I will show you around.  I get the fuck out of dodge on the double and drive strait to Tucson.  

We meet in front of Plush and we start walking around.  I had opened up 3 practice sets before he got there and was ready to go.

My first impression of skynet:
1.  Really good looking dude with strong features.
2.  Awsome vibe and energy.
3.  Radiant smile that conveys that he gets laid a lot.
4.  "I don't give a fuck" swager.

We went into a couple of bars/clubs and I opened up a few sets and later he critiqued me.  I got to the scene around 12:30am so it was pretty target poor.  I didn't mind though because it gave us a lot of time to talk and for me to absorb as much as I could from him.   I watched him open a couple of sets an was really impressed.  

Skynet is very cocky and funny.  He is constantly busting on the sets and they just eat it up.  Its not wonder he posts as my LR's and I post FR's on my NMJ.

What I learned from skynet
1.  How to be very high energy and playful.
2.  When story telling ad in girls and other dhv spikes to make them more interesting to the girls and convey more DHV.
3.  You don't have to use as much canned material if you can be cocky & funny.  
4.  I should start focusing on Quality and not so much on Quantity anymore.

I really had a great time in Tucson.  Skynet is a fun guy and although we didn't really get to game any real targets I learned a lot from him.  I look foward to hitting that scene again.

Thanks skynet for showing me around.  It was one of the most inspiring nights out I have had so far.

Asmokindeal.
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« Reply #51 on: August 04, 2006, 01:40:44 AM »
Night out with the luxberry.

Thursday out with Luxberry rocked.  Lux is very assertive and opens lots of sets.  He is very alpa and very high energy.  

We met at the Q club on Mill and later walked over to Zuma.
I opened up 4 sets at the Q and but none of them went anywhere.

At Zuma's I opened a cute 2 set with two HB8's.  The were both cute girls and I talked to them for 5 minutes busting on them a little and then I told them I wanted to introduce them to some of my friends.  Lux was gaming a 2 set and I brang HB8Short over to these two girls and introduces them.  The girls all introduces themselves and that went over awsome.  I just played if off to my target that I knew these girls.

A few seconds later HB8short said she had to go to the restroom.  I was standing there with everybody else in our group so I just hung tight.  Lux was still gaming the two set.  HB8Short never reapeared.  It was strange because she ditched her friend to go with me.  We were there for anouther 20 minutes and I watched her lonely quiet friend in the corner.  HB8Short never went back over there.  She had told me that they went High school together.  I think she got abducted by aliens.

We bounced over to the Tavern and the scene was a little target poor but still enough to game.

I felt like a real pussy tonight.  I hardly ever go into loud environments and I allowed myself to use this as an excuse to not practice my game as much as I would have liked too.  All in all I opened about 8 sets.

I am really getting tired of a few things:

1.  Not being able to day sarge and open up single targets at lunch.
2.  Not being able to work loud environments.
3.  Not being able to work sets that are in the middle of a crowd of people.
4.  Not being able to work sets where I think people are going to listen in on the conversation in quite environments.

I am going to squash this pussy bullshit this weekend and tear it up.

I am starting to feel like I am going to set a world record for the most sets opened without a LR.  It is really pissing me the fuck off.

I did use a lot of what I learned with skynet to open the sets that I did open.  It immediately jumped my game up.  I was a lot more cocky funny and it went over awsome.

Thanks Lux.  It was awsome to meet you.

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« Reply #52 on: August 04, 2006, 03:05:25 PM »
Hey thanks for the compliments man appreciate it.

Asmokindeal has balls I'll give him that, funny thing I notice in this community the guys that DONT back down to a challenge when opening are the guys who improve in this game. I dont think Asmokindeal backed down to anything I said! A few things I noticed...

-the first group you opened at Q club, the 2 girls and the HB6.5 to warm up, you did really good in that, they were feeling it. If you wanted to you probably could have picked any of them if you had a target, but that was JUST warm up because they were UGS! That to be honest was the best set I saw you in and I liked that line you gave me, BAIT HOOK REEL RELEASE.  I need to start doing that more.

-The set next to the wall, you tried opening up the 2 HB8.5's and I opened the one friend HB9Pink while she was walking away. They had shields up but IN MY OPINION we both coulda stayed in our sets, the HB9 I think was just waiting for me to say SOMETHING cool and I didn't. Not sure on yours what happened, but I think we coulda stayed in there... maybe another opener?

-Zuma, I didn't even think about it until reading your post. But I vaguely remember you bringing girls over, I was so wrapped into 2 HB's kinoing THE FUCK outta me at the same time I was in my own little world and trying to not go afc on it. I was having a lot fun with that set but it wasn't solid. If you could tell me how my body language/energy was with that please do so I'd appreciate the critique. The girl in the corner had some TIG OL BITTIES.

-Tavern was gay.

-Don't get mad. It's not being a pussy, it's coming out of COMFORT zone. I'm really comfortable being loud and drawing attention, it helps in places like Zuma. Your energy was low after the first set, I attribute that to you only sleeping 2 hours the night before, I can't even try and sarge when I'm tired, I give you props for just coming out. Voice projection and pecking I think is something you should work on, I have the voice but I peck(its human nature).

Other than taking care of a drunk jew who kept wanting to give me props(hah he's my boy and girls love him so the social proof helped) it was fun.


‘But Alex’ I hear you say, I’m a chode victim, I’m worse than everyone.

‘Shut the fuck up’ I retort.

**argument ends**

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« Reply #53 on: August 07, 2006, 08:42:31 AM »
Day:18
Sets: 23
Total Sets: 233
Number Closes: 1
Total Number Closes: 5

The was defenantly the most interesting day of sarging yet.  I thought this post was going to be a LR & I got front row seats to a Lesbian Sex Show in a club.

Sun Slayer and I went out for what was to be a full day of sarging.  We hit malls, the Biltmore, Mill Avenue, Old Town Scottsdale, restaurants…a lot of different places.

We met up for breakfast and had 4 waitresses all involved in a role-play game where HB7 was flirting with us and she wouldn’t leave us alone.  It was really working awesome.  The number close went down in flames.

Went to the mall and kept mistakenly opening up Mother & daughter sets.  Very weird to open with the 2 part kiss opener and the mom says “cheating” and HB9daughterage17 says “its not cheating”.  Mom grabbed her quick and said “lets go”.

So around 9:30pm we decided to go and eat dinner.  We went into a place that I frequent and one of my regular waitresses says “You defenantly don’t want to sit in my section tonight, I am in a bad mood.”  

So we walked around the restaurant and sit down.  Guess who shows up.  HB9BadMood.
She approaches the table and I can tell she is glad to see me and she sits down and I say “what’s up” and I grab her hand and hold it.  She goes on about what a horrible night she is having and how she is overwhelmed.  She takes our order and leaves.

No a little background on this chick.  I have been gaming her for about 1 month and have seen her at work over 6 times.  I know this chick and she knows me.  We are defenantly not strangers.  I have put in a lot of cocky/funny from the very beginning.  She always has a great time when we are in there.

So after a while she calms down and every time she comes over I am keno Escelating.  I am rubbing her arm and shoulders and eventually I do a hair pull.  (I asked her if she has ever had her hair pulled and she wanted me to do it) She said it hurt and I said “let me try again”  she walks back over and I pull again.  Again she said it hurt.  

She next starts to talk about how she likes to go to Denny’s after she gets off work.  I don’t really respond directly and just make a mental note.

The next time she comes back she starts talking about how her anxiety medication (she’s kind of a spas) caused a false positive pregnancy reading.  “I haven’t heard from BF since”  Then she leaves.

She comes back and tells me that she lost her virginity a year ago and she was planning on waiting for marriage.  She said she got drunk one night and it just happened.  She continues to assure me that she only sleeps with one person at a time and that she is not a slut.  The whole time she is giving me the doggy dinner bowl look and I am touching her on the arms and shoulders non-stop.  

Sun Slayer pulls out his camera and she almost jumped up on my lap to get the picture.  She looks at the picture and Sun repositions to take another picture and this time she cuddles up deep into me to get the picture and puts her head up against my neck.  She was really close.

Before leaving I asked her if she wanted to go to Denny’s after work and she said she  liked that idea.  She gave me her number and told me to call around 2:30.  Before leaving I gave her a side hug and she melted into me and got close again.  I said bye and we left.

Sun and I talked and we were both convinced that it was real and she wanted to fuck.  There were so many IOI’s and she was totally qualifying herself sexually to me.  

Next we headed up to the Crown Room in Scottsdale and it got wild there.

I was in the crowd and I see a short hot HB9short with flashy sunglasses on.  I end up right next to her by coincidence as it was very packed.  My back is to her and I am not even thinking about her and I feel somebody rubbing my head (Bald).  Then a wisper in my ear “You know what’s up” in a very sexy voice.  I turn around and its HB9short.  I say to her “That shit ain’t free you know.” She smiles.
HB9short:  What do you want?
Me:       Your sunglasses.
(I am talking over my left shoulder and I am turning my head to talk to her.  I had looked away after the “your sunglasses” comment.  When I look back I am staring at her eyeballs.  It took me back because the sunglasses covered almost half of her face and this was the first time I saw her real face)
HB9short:   (hands me the sunglasses, I try them on and she says)  They look good but you can’t have them..  Then she reaches out for my hand and Isolates ME.  She takes my hand and locks me between the bar and a beam.  We stand there holding hands and talking about bullshit.  I tell her 2 DHV stories and then she starts telling me about herself.  She dances at 2 different strip clubs, likes the outdoors and is Bi-Sexual.  

A second later she sees a HB9.5 standing beside me and starts kissing her which leads to her pulling down her shirt and sucking on her tits and eventually she pulls up her skirt and drops to her knees and eats her pussy.  All in front of me.  She comes back up and sucks her tits again.  I grab her ass and she pushes her ass into me and start grinding and wiggling side to side.  This goes on for about 10 minutes in total.  

Eventually the crowd gets very packed and she gets pulled away from me for a second and a chode gets between me and her.  I stand there AFC style for 4 minutes and then I decide to leave my place.  I reach out and touch her arm and strike it for a second to let me know I am leaving.  She turns around and said it was nice to meet me and I walk back to my friends outside.  

Back to the waitress from the restaurant:

2:30 comes and I call HB9Badmood from earlier and get her VM.  I leave a short message and try back around 3:15…VM again.

Never heard back from her.

So what the fucked happened to this chick?  I have my suspicions that she just came to her senses and decided to not meet up and do something she was going to regret.  What do you guys think?

Tired of typing about now.

Later

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« Reply #54 on: August 15, 2006, 08:56:51 PM »
I havn't been keeping this up to date because I figured it wasn't interesting anymore but I realized tonight that I really gives me anouther reason to put in a solid night of sarging.

I don't think that I am going to post specific numbers about how many sets I open because anymore I open a set and spend a lot of time with that one set and never finish out the night with a strong 12.  I would however like to go back to the days where I do open more sets.  I believer I am at about set number 260.  I will post some general number on what set I am on because I do want to follow through with my innitial committment of 280 sets.  I am almost there.

I am thinking that on sets I don't really want to get in too deep with I will run solid material and not get sidetracked.  In fact I think at this point I am going to measure my success with how many phone numbers and day 2's I can get.  I havn't successfully lined up a day 2 but I have 2 chicks that I am gaming right now that show promise.  

One of these girls is showing particular interest.  I went to her work last night (she is a hired gun) and drank 1 beer.  Before I left she begged me to stay and walk from table to table with her finishing up her side work.  I told her I wouldn't do that and to get herself a lackie.  

As I was leaving she wouldn't let me pay for my beer and wouldn't accept any money for a tip.  I literally held out the money and said "take it" and she just pushed me out the door laughing and smiling really big.

It seems like the more I disregard their feelings and say what is on my mind the better they respond to me.

After that I walked down Q Club met up with Luxberry.
He was his usual high energy self and we had a great time.  I opened afew sets but nothing stuck.  We decided to go to Zuma's and sarge there.  After about 1 minute in there I realized that I wasn't even going to try and run game because it is so fucking loud.  I walked right out and walked to the corner and was bantering with this cool homeless guy.  I opened 2 sets.  

Set #1 was on her cell phone and was supposadly talking to her boyfriend but I opened it anyway.  Didn't go anywhere.

Set #2
HB8.5 Target
HB7.5 Obstacle
set went pretty good but I didn't neg or be cocky to the target enough.  We hit it off pretty good and I gamed them for about 20 minutes.  I number closed them and headed home.  I am almost positive that it is a flake number.  It was funny the way she covered this up though.  

Right after she gave me the number I dialed it immediately.  She saw this and she said "oh, my battery is going dead, see (holding up the phone so I could see it saying "powering down")."

I think as I was dialing she had her hand on the power button and was turning it off so that I wouldn't know that it was a bad number.  I guess she could have been telling the truth but my gut tells me otherwise.

Time will tell on that one.

All in All I am starting to feel confident about my ability to run sets and to pass the hook point with almost every set.  I just have some interesting funny shit to tell them and they want to hear it.  It is pretty much all of the canned material I have read online but I do have some funny stories about things that have happened to me in the past couple of months.

later

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« Reply #55 on: August 16, 2006, 09:07:05 PM »
my reccomendation is to get completely hammerred and start spitting on girls and then tell your wing how they're negging you


‘But Alex’ I hear you say, I’m a chode victim, I’m worse than everyone.

‘Shut the fuck up’ I retort.

**argument ends**

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« Reply #56 on: August 18, 2006, 03:05:24 AM »
Hey man,

     Good workin with you the past couple of nights.  It's good to see how dedicated you are to this.  I have to say I am way impressed.  You motivate me to focus on a few areas I've been neglecting.  I hope to see the changes that are coming over the next few months up front.  Keep it up.

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« Reply #57 on: August 18, 2006, 03:43:15 PM »
Smoke, just wanted to thank you for breaking me in, you have sick openers, and I'm learning alot from you, dude let's get laid tonight!!! It's time to sarge.

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« Reply #58 on: August 19, 2006, 12:39:15 PM »
Went out with Smooth again last night.

We Hit Devils Martini North to start out.  The croud was a little older but Smooth had opened a 3 set (HB 7,8,9-10).  He had some major IOI from the target HB9-10 but in the shuffle he managed to lose track of this set.

Smooth has a lot of natual game and has a really great frame and strong inner game.  He comes off as a really cool and down to earth person.  

We weren't digging the croud so much after a little while and decided to bounce over to Old Town.  We ended up in front of Martini Ranch and we ran into Smooth's set from earlier.  It was like a mirracle.  I hadn't seen these chicks at Devils North and so I was shocked at how hot the target was.  He friends were pretty cute too.

HB9-10 jumps into his arms and Smooth is holding her off of the ground and she is just hanging there in his arms like a little kitten about 6 inches off of the ground.  

After that Smooth sets her down and she has to run to catch back up with her friends.  We are just standing there like "WTF???" as we watch her run away from us.  We stand there for a couple of minutes and thinking, fuck she's getting away.  It was really frustrating because we had been talking about this chick and what a bummer it was that he didn't get her number and we find her and now she is running away.  

We both agree that we will probably never see her again so we can't really do any damage by chasing her and the group so we set after her with about a 100 yard gap.  We finally catch up and I open the set back up.

One of the obstacle is bending over in the middle of the street and I yell at her that she is uncool and I can see her crack.  The set pretty much blows open and the target introduces herself to me and really warms up to me friend style.  I am stacking material while we are walking and being cocky funny the whole time.  The girls are were hooked and they were begging for more material.  I was dancing on the entertainer/clown line but I was just trying to keep them entertained so Smooth could work the target.

She (Target) was on her cell phone at this point as they were waiting for their car at a Vallet.  The Vallet shows up and the girls hop in.  As they are leaving the obstacle is driving.  I say we are bouncing to Denny's and they are welcome to tag allong.  She sais "Are you buying me breakfast?"  I say "I'm not paying to hang out with you" and smile.  She repeats the free breakfast line and I ask if she is going to go.  I basically ignored the statement.  She asked a 3rd time and I just staired at her in a playfull way and she was staring back equally playful.  I finally, after about 3 moments of silence said "see you there" and walked away.

During this last exchange the obstacle was looking out of the car through a crack in the window of about 4 inches.  So There was a "we are leaving" message being conveyed.

They never showed up....

We think Target had a BF and that was why it never hooked and she wouldn't give up the number.

Later

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« Reply #59 on: August 20, 2006, 02:23:31 PM »
A big group of us guys (XRay, Limitless, Smooth, Me & Smooth's roommate) all went down to old town.  We drove in seperate vehicles and I drove my car with Smooth and Limitless.

First time meeting Limitless.  Its obvious that he has been doing this for a while because he has really great body language, walk and vibe.  Very positive person to hang out with.

I made a comment while we were walking to the Crown Room that I need about 3 sets to warm up.  Smooth said I need to just relax and have fun and that I think about this shit too much or something like that.  I basically got butt-hurt and started being a little bitch about the whole thing.  

Smooth is a natural and has movie star looks.  He has zero approach anxiety and cannot relate to being AFC.  

I have learned a lot from Smooth but what I learned last night is that my inner game sucks.  I am for the most part still very very AFC.  Emphasis on on the "F".  I am very frustrated.  I am defenantly not Average for a host of reasons (If you want to know about them I would be happy to be a "try hard" and spill my guts so that you can stroke me).  I am not sure what a chump is so maybe I am a chump.

At this point in my game I realize that I have more outer game than inner game.  I so easily get cracked in the field when I am with guys that are better than me.  Not over being rejected by a female, that doesn't bother me at all.  Last night with Smooth I got really discouraged bacause he is Smooth.  He gets IOI from the second he opens.  The girls fucking love him.  They all want to make his babies (I'm am not fucking kidding about this).  

I have a lot of work to do on my inner game.  This sucks because I have been working on my inner game for the last 10 years strait.  I have read hundreds of books on confidence, self-esteem, psychology and anything else I could get my hands on that would help me to feel better.  I used to always ask my brother "what is wrong with me?  Why do I feel like this?"  He would always say "there is nothing wrong with you".  Well fortunalely for me a couple of years ago I went almost completely blind and I found out I had a brain tumor that needed to be removed.  After that was removed I felt much better and I could see again.  I wasn't so depressed and fucked up in the head.

Now it seems like I have a lot of residual damage, inner game wise, from living in pain both physically and emotionally for so many years.
The Physical pain is gone but I still have a lot of inner game demons.
I feel like I am headed to Las Vegas.  Its going to be fucking awsome when I get there.  I am going to play poker, fuck hot bitches, eat awsome food, stay out all night and have a blast.  The problem is that I am on foot.  I am fucking walking.  I have walked for about 2 months now but I am still in Wickenburg.  That a long fucking walk for  me, about 60 miles I think, but I am a long long way from Las Vegas and picking up a hot little Vegas Spinner.

Getting laid just seems mythical and unobtainable to me.  Like when you see a mansion on a hilltop.  It's cool to look at but there is a giant gate all the way around it, guards, dobermans and spot lights.

I had a friend that used to tell me all of the time "The bigger the breakdown, the bigger the breakthrough".  I defenantly had a breakdown last night.  For that I appologize to Smooth, Limitless and XRay.

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